AbyssinianMaid

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Invisible by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Invisible

Invisible Show Details Invisble? A strange word, still- clear meaning. Remain out of sight no more crying- People look, as if they see me. Now isnt that funny! People? See me? Never! For they are too clever! Simplicistic beauty surrounds us all, We are blind! Ever since that fateful fall… Alas! Some sweet, simple folk blessed to see Recount to any who listen a sense to slightly see. We all make the choice, To harken to that sweetest voice. What choice? The one of clarity. Damn society, damn the world! Damn HUMNAITY! None care for others, we walk by the young child bruised, We ignore, cast shame and judgment wh

My Life's Heartache by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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My Life's Heartache

Now I sit, looking back not seeing what I did right, but all I truly lack. Ignoring my light. Only seeing my darkness. Trail of broken hearts painful memories of past carresses, this is what creeps in as new love starts. Always the one to run, afraid of what I want so much. I hide like a vampire from the sun. Scared to death of his touch. He won't hurt me, that I truly know. But he is blind, he will not see, what he thinks he sees is only a show. I through myself in completely, loveing with everything I can. But I am nothing but a simple fantasy. Poor innocent man, se eager to take my hand. I try to tell him 'Stay away' S

Blade and Friend by AbyssinianMaid, literature

Changes by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Changes

Times are changing, Thoughts rearranging. 21, going to marry, Soon to have a baby, its scary. Wanting a family, but hesitating. Maybe I'm not good enough, its terrifying. Being a wife and mother is sacred, Is that why the thought fills me with dread? I want to be a woman, and fulfill my dreams, BUt it seems those dreams have changed to another theme. College and a career now replaced with matrimony and motherhood. Knowing my past, being better, is it something that I could? Could I be a true wife, a loving mother without losing myself? Or does who I am retire and site high upon a shelf? Is it possible that one such as I can succ

Daddy by AbyssinianMaid, literature

Firsts by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Firsts

First time I've ever been really loved First time not being forced or shoved, First time I've ever been respected First time I have seen my dreams reflected. You have given me more, so much, True love is laced beneath your touch. I look in your eyes and see a man, Not a boy, not a guy, but a real man. A man that God designed so beautifully, A man who understands my hidden frailty . Someone who truly cares about my happiness, Someone who treasures each gentile caress. So many firsts it blows my mind, Like our first dance, that blew my mind. To list all our firsts would take forever, So, I can never leave you, never. God sent me

Selfish by AbyssinianMaid, literature

They tell me.... by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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They tell me....

They tell me I’m too good for you, But I can’t believe that, Even after everything you put me through. I just can’t believe that. The way you hold me The way you could make me smile, The way you kissed me, The way you made all the bad disappear for a while. You loved me, how could that change? I never hurt you, never lied to you, So how could your love change? You know I love you. I had to go, I didn’t like being away, I just wanted to be with you. And now I’m back and it’s all gone away. My lover, my friend, my soul mate, It’s all gone now. What did I do to deserve this fate? I’m su

London Fog by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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London Fog

Since you went to heaven, Life has been so hard, waking up in a fright, Just taking a breath takes all my might, Since you went to heaven. Without your shining light to guide, All I want to do is hide. I feel like I’m walking through thick London fog, Trying hard to see, but falling over a big log. Every way I turn brings a new pain, Sometimes it seems I’m living my life in vain. I pray to God, beg Him to lift this fog, Give me guidance out of this bog. Let me see past loosing you, Let me face all I’ve been put through, Don’t let me hide, Or keep it all inside. Just lift this awful London Fog

Surrounded by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Surrounded

Surrounded by the stench of death The agonizing tales I could tell know no depth, Sorrow engulfs me at every turn, Pain-filled screams in my memory burned. Scenes of dead bodies, stolen lives, Their soundtrack on repeat, Echoes of lives since deprived Now they lie beneath our feet. Fear is now my friend, Death a close acquaintance, To them both my soul I do lend. There is no time for repentance. It is my doom to be forever lost, Captured by deaths evil frost. Yet as King David said “What have I to fear? For thou art with me” My Savior calls me dear, I belong to Him, the Great Three in One, God the father sent Jesus

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Invisible by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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My Life's Heartache by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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My Life's Heartache

Changes by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Changes

Daddy by AbyssinianMaid, literature

Firsts by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Firsts

Selfish by AbyssinianMaid, literature

They tell me.... by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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They tell me....

London Fog by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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London Fog

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Surrounded

I Try revised by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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I Try revised

I try so hard to let you in, Let you see my every secret sin. But every time I try to say what I really mean, I freeze up, and try to change the scene. Yes I know I can be blunt and say what is there, That you won’t abandon me no matter what is there, But I’m scared! I know how horrible what is inside me is, I’m afraid I’ll loose this happily ever after, this bliss. I’m far from the perfect girl you seem to see, Not at all who you that I would be. Fear controls my every move, See, I have no one to lean on, no one to soothe, Soothe the pain I feel when I remember. Especially when it comes to last December.

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Here I Am by SamhraVale, literature

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Here I Am

Here I am, a year later, and thinking of you in a new light. But, here I am, many heartbreaks later, still wishing you were mine. I never really called you "love," "baby," or some other sweet name. Damn it all, how I wanted to— proudly—tenderly make that claim. Here I am, a year later, and thinking of you in a new light. But, here I am, many heartbreaks later, still wishing you were mine. You're a fire that never dies, just like your scorching rejection. You only wanted to be nice… in my fragile heart's dissection. Criss-crossed scars straight to hell and back did fall upon my battered soul; From my tainted ba

Fragile Wings by SamhraVale, literature

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Fragile Wings

A wicked angel you are But I could never travel far Not when you're air I breathe The life I bleed Not when you're the soul I need The truth I heed Not when you're the key The heart I believe Not when you're the seed The bloom of my deed A broken doll you've become But I won't let you go numb Not when you're the spark The light to my dark Not when you're my warmth The one in my arms Not when you fill my ocean The one who stirs my emotions Not when you're my love The treasure from the gods above A boy with such fragile wings The one who is my everything…

change time by lost-soul-forever, literature

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change time

When you smile I feel as if time is slipping by, I wish for it to never stop, But like all things it will come to an end, You will never know how many times I count the seconds till I can see you next, Wishing, hopping and praying too much time has not passed, Because like all things it will come to an end, As you speak to me I hang on every word, Trying to absorb as much of you as I can, Because like all things it will come to an end, You will never know how I long for your touch, As I try to keep the feeling in my mind, But like all things it will come to an end, Time has taken your smile, words and touch, But the one thing I w

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Bullied by SnakeMorte, literature

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Bullied

I walked to school, Knowing what was going to happen… I heard the scream when I came to the school's play yard, I saw them come running to me… I never know what they are going to do, Maybe just a few blows… Maybe more, I stood completely still just waiting for the blow… They started to push me, I fell down and tried to get away… Tried to curl up in a ball, Kicks rain over my back… The pain is starting to overtake my body, I tried to ignore it… But it was too much, Finally the bell rang… The others ran in happily chatting, Leaving me behind still curled up in a ball… Like I was not

NORMAL WHAT IS THAT? by SnakeMorte, literature

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NORMAL WHAT IS THAT?

NORMAL? WHAT IS THAT? They call me stupid… They call me dumb… I am neither, I am deaf. I can never hear a sound. I talk with my hands. I am neither stupid nor dumb, I am just ME! They call me weird… They call me dumb… They call me worthless… I am neither, I am blind. I never get to see the world. I read with my fingers, not my eyes. I am neither weird nor dumb nor worthless, I am just ME! They call me a problem… They call me an idiot… They call me dangerous… They call me a troublemaker… I am neither, I have autism. I have a handicap. I see things and people differently. I am ne

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Seeking by AbyssinianMaid, literature

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Seeking

A wanderer, lost and alone. Constantly looking for what she can't find, God banished her from her throne, Forced to live in a human mind. She seeks always for some comfort Pleading with the Gods for peace, She would take any kind of solace, any sort. Wonders if this loneliness will ever cease. Forever forced to live in awful winter, None will ease her pain, None can ever soothe her, Lost and alone she must remain. Although she is surrounded by thousands, No one will ever reach her on her lonely island.

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About AbyssinianMaid

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Artist // Student // Literature

United States
Deviant for 16 years
She / Her

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Some things never change, the body does, the soul does not.

Hi, I'm Abyssinian Maid, I'm about to get married, and will be starting a family, I'm a christian who loves to learn and read.
I appreciate art, but can't draw for anything. wanna know more? just ask!

Current Residence: USA
deviantWEAR sizing preference: medium
Favourite genre of music: ummm, all?
Favourite style of art: Anime, Traditional, pretty much anything as long as it looks good :)
Operating System: Windows XP Pro
MP3 player of choice: Zune
Shell of choice: hard and soft
Wallpaper of choice: Picture of my Grandma, Grandpa and Gabby
Skin of choice: My Own
Favourite cartoon character: tigger, tweety, TINKER BELL!!!!!!!!
Personal Quote: Love is not love without pain, oh but the pain is worth it

Favourite Visual Artist

Thomas Kinkade

Favourite Movies

Braveheart, Underworld, Pride and Predjuce, Emma, Jane Eyre, Titanic

Favourite TV Shows

true blood

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Papa Roach, Enigma, Evanesence, MontgomeryGentry, Toby Keith, Reba, Pink

Favourite Books

House of Night

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe, J.R.R. Tolkien, John Keats, Robert Frost,Emily Dickinson,S.T. Coleridge

Favourite Games

eucher, apples to apples, poker, Egyptian rat screw

Favourite Gaming Platform

a table

Tools of the Trade

pen, paper, and my mind

Other Interests

Books, histroy, vampires, mythical creautres, religion

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May 22, 2012

Please pray.....

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I am asking for prayers for my friend Scott Farley. He was in a bad accident and is in a coma. it doesn't look good for him. He was a great friend to my husband. prayers are truly appreciated....

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Jan 4, 2011

Looking back on last year and Looking Forward

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Well, to say the least last year was a year of changes. Not only did I continue to live on my own, but I also got married to the man of my dreams. Now, we are expecting our first child in March. He is starting a new job and I'm doing my best to take care of the house and all that stuff. Its weird to look back at how many times I said I'm never going to get married and I'm never going to find anyone to love me. Well I did, and I am so very thankful to have found my husband. He is my perfect match. Granted he isn't perfect, but he is everything I could ever want in a husband. That said, I haven't written anything in months, since before the

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May 12, 2010

Ok too much talk not enough action.

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I have been talking for awhile about selfpublishing my poetry into a book, or at least doing different sections of my work. Well after my wedding which is June 19th, I will publish it. I would like people to tell me which of my works both on this account and loveistlost1987.deviantart.com they would most like to see in a collection. I am also considering just putting all of my work into one book. I will do it book size and on true parchment paper. All I reall need is some input and I'm going to have someone design the cover, that is going to be the real challenge, so please any ideas comment or note me. Thanks! Nikkie